1 Month - Postpartum Update
I still can’t believe I’m a Mom!
Being 1 Month PP is so surreal. The emotional rollercoaster I have been on is not what I had expected or thought of and NOTHING could have prepared me for this. I didn’t have any sisters or close family to ask how they felt or what should I expect.
Is This Normal?
To be completely honest I just feel normal… I don’t feel any type of fulfillment or overjoyed that I am now a mother. I heard about the immense amount of love I would be filled with once I become a mother and had my baby but I still haven’t felt that.
I kept thinking to myself maybe something is wrong with me?
New Parents
We are extremely blessed to have had my husband take one full month of parental leave and I have three months of leave to be home with our son.
Becoming first-time parents is a HUGE adjustment and again nothing could have prepared us for this! My husband and I really struggled with accepting each other’s idea of how to parent of care for our son.
I had to realize that our relationship has now changed and we need to find ourselves again to start a “new” relationship as parents and as partners.
Undersupplier
I also never really thought about how hard breastfeeding would be… I just assumed it would come naturally but I was so wrong.
I am an undersupplier. The most milk I ever collected was an entire day pumping to make one (1) bottle for my son (ONE ENTIRE DAY)!
This affected my mental health and I just decided to formula-feed our son. It was very discouraging but I had to do what was best for myself and my baby.
Recovery
I did have a C-Section and recovery has been steady. I struggled with not being able to get up quickly or just not being able to do much days after my surgery.
NEW MOM ANXIETY!
I can’t express this enough - the anxiety I feel is overwhelming!
Self Terapia
What has helped me get through each day is giving myself terapia.
“Everything will be okay” “ You’re doing a good job” and, reminding myself that I am showing up every day and being the best mom to my son that I can be.
I am just trying to take it one day at a time.
